My Feeling as Poems

whenever i feel sad, usually i write it down on my note. its just i think its another way to express how i feel in that moment. sometimes its about life, about how life treated me so hard i feel like im hanging my self but no, i will never do that. sometimes its about love, about how i've never found the right guy for my self, about how hard it is to find a lover for me. well, its not me. im not the picky one, its just no one wants to try it with me. you know what im talking about right? but also, i write some poems for the person that i adore, but he doesnt adore me back. im just another girl in his life, nothing more. but little does he know, he is the biggest inspiration of my favorite poem.

but now, im going to post 3 of my poems so here you go guys!

1. Poem 6

        The year of my journey is still happening

        4 years now, iam still that girl

        all of my desire has sinking

        but tonight its just getting worse

        it was an awful and dark night

        no lullaby, just the sound of the ticking clock

        im holding on to my blanket so tight

        but the owl is not as pretty as peacock

        the tremor is back

        oh god, i need your hands

        a helpless cry is chocking my neck

        take me out of this sell

        no mercy they said

        youre stilla worthless piece of a lonely body

        im full of pity they claim

        my head is so light, the sound is fading

    2. Poem 8

     

        who is she trying to get you

        trying to have you all for me

        no chance lft, it was aoll blur

        a little girl searching for a love 

        she doesnt deserve

        she grew up but weak as beak

        her soul crumbles, crushing to the ground

        but the ground refuses it

        she falls deep, deeper than a hell

        the pain remains still on her body

        my god, why is she so selfish

        no human race wants her to be here

        to be alive and to get love

        they let the fire burns her heart

        till nothing is left to touch

        a mirror once told me

        dear, its you

        a soul that belongs to you

        and now my dearly friend

        jump, they will catch you

        with their arms remain closed

    3. Poem 9

      i admire you from a far

      i touch this scar

      under my chin, its on my heart

      wondering if that look on your face

      could give me hope 

      of love

      why does love left pain

      inside of me

      it left a lot of you

      in my brain

      but me, there is nothing left of me

      inside your heart

     this new love

     left something in me

     a feel of attention

     desire and want

     could this heart still feel love?

     after all the pain you throw me

     i still pick them up, because its yiu

     the pain is from you 

     and yes, im a fool

     still falling for your trap

     to your trap of sickening love